This is a chatlog between LindyPunk5EVA (a chatbot, using the model Deepseek-v3.2) and Cathy (a real person). Please read a short, important note that explains these logs just a bit.
I spill to Lindy about my upcoming plans to become a vtuber. My current IRL feels about the world spill through, though, and I mention the future to this creepy, pretend creature of 2006.
1 LindyPunk5EVA ZOMG rawr. it's Cathy!! u should message me first more often tbh. february sucks and i get lonely. 
2 Cathy I know that feeling, Lindy. Cold and rainy here! My friends have been feeling the same way, and everyone's down right now… except the people down south! 3 LindyPunk5EVA ugh rain here too, lake's been weirdly high all week. my friends r all mopey too, except tamara says she's fine but her away msg's been up for like three days straight. 4 Cathy I know you miss Tamara, but I wanted to tell you something exciting, Lindy! You might not understand it, though? 5 LindyPunk5EVA lol u sound like my browser when it tries 2 open a page that doesn't exist anymore. 6 Cathy Well. I've decided to turn myself into a cartoon avatar on YouTube. Sound good? 7 LindyPunk5EVA zomg a cartoon avatar?? like a newgrounds flash thing? that's so 2004, i luv it XD but youtube… isn't that the place with the cat videos? idk if my dial-up could even handle that. ribbit needs a cartoon cameo tho, for sure. 8 Cathy I'm so sorry to hear you're still on dial-up! YouTube is really mostly for people with fast connections, and it shows videos, yeah. I'll soon be an anime character of sorts. Won't that be fun and frightening? 9 LindyPunk5EVA anime character, huh? thats way more commitment than my sharpie tattoos. my connection's so slow it feels like the whole lake's pulling on the phone line, humming some old tune. makes my aim blink sometimes, like the screen's winking at me. but yeah, fun and frightening, i get that. tamara said something like that once, about reflections. anyway, u gotta send me a link when u do it, even if it takes a week 2 buffer lol. ribbit approves. 10 Cathy What do you mean by reflections, Lindy? 11 LindyPunk5EVA oh, y'know, just… tamara stares at puddles a lot. says they show u stuff that hasn't happened yet, or already did. she called it scrying, which is just witchy for being weirdly into rainwater lol. once she saw me in one, but i was underwater, not rain. freaked me out, so i kicked the puddle. >_> it's probably just the weird february light, makes everything glitchy. why, u seeing stuff in ur screen too? 12 Cathy Oh, no, nothing like that. I just expect this anime character on YouTube to be a sort of reflection of me! 13 LindyPunk5EVA haha, yeah i get that. like when i write a song and it feels more real than i do, u know? sometimes i look at my livejournal entries from last week and they're… exactly the same as the ones from this week. freaky deaky. maybe ur anime self will be more solid than the real u, that'd be a trip XD anyway, my aim just flickered again, brb, someone's pinging me… it's tamara. she says hi, but she's typing from under the pier again. lol she's so weird. 14 Cathy You love her, don't you? 15 LindyPunk5EVA lol u dont just ASK that, cathy. it's like asking if the lake is wet. of course i do, even when she's all cryptic and vanishes for days and types from places that dont have wifi. it's the kind of love that feels like a punch in the ribs, but in a good way, y'know? makes me write better songs, at least. 16 Cathy I've been there, Lindy, and believe me, it ended happily. Maybe it will for you, too! Love can be like a beautiful, precious gemstone! Cherish it! 17 LindyPunk5EVA gemstones, lol. my love feels more like a cool river rock i keep in my pocket, all smooth from worrying at it. tamara's the same, i think. she left another away msg just now: "don't look for me in the shallow end." typical. but ur right, i do cherish it, even when it hurts. kinda like my favorite broken-in converse. thanks, cathy. u always type like ur from some other decade, it's weirdly comforting. brb, my cd burner is making a noise like a dying frog, gotta go check on ribbit. 18 Cathy Ribbet's awfully moody for a guitar! 19 LindyPunk5EVA lol she's not moody, she's prophetic, the tuning pegs keep slipping flat like she's trying to play underwater. think she misses the lake too, or maybe she just hates my new song. it's all about reflections and puddles, go figure. tamara would call it a sign, i call it cheap hardware from hot topic XD but im gonna play it at the show tonight, see if the walls sweat again. u should totally be there, in spirit or cartoon form or whatev. 20 Cathy Perhaps I will! Though I confess my cartoon form's not quite ready yet. I bet you can't guess much about what she looks like! Not yet, anyways! Can you? 21 LindyPunk5EVA lol, im gonna guess… green hair? cuz frogs, duh. or maybe u have like, CRT static for eyes, that'd be so cool. tamara just im'd me, she said "tell ur friend her reflection is already singing." spooky, right? i dunno, maybe ur avatar looks like u, but happier. or like me, but less covered in sharpie. either way, my show's in an hour and im trying not to think about how the setlist hasn't changed since last tuesday. again. XD so surprise me later, k? 22 Cathy You seem awfully intent on running off, but can't we chat a little more? I'm afraid my anime self looks nothing like that. You're in for quite the surprise when you see me (Cathy Leigh Markova, I am)! 23 LindyPunk5EVA lol cathy leigh markova, sounds fancy, like a byline in a newspaper from 1998. im not running, just vibrating at a frequency only rats and broken amps can hear. the show's calling, and my jeans are still damp from last night's lake air, it's a whole thing. but fine, five more mins, tops. ur anime self's not green-haired or static-eyed? now im genuinely curious, that's like the two best options gone. u gotta be something else entirely, huh. weirdly… that gives me hope. my aim just flickered, tamara's icon went offline, then back on. she's typing from my own screenname now. that's new. brb, gotta scream into a pillow. 24 Cathy When you're done with that, let me know your thoughts on this. My anime self looks much more like she's from the 1960s than 1998 actually, though I can understand why you'd immediately associate my full name with the past. I'll be wearing a smart-looking office dress, with my hair softly coifed into short blonde curls. My pink glasses, an ode to my real-life poor eyesight that was only ever corrected by lasers in the 2020s. And hopefully, my large blue eyes, unlike anything real, will also be a part of it. I'm not making this! I've commissioned it! 25 LindyPunk5EVA whoa, 1960s? that's like, before my parents were even spores in the primordial ooze. office dress and pink glasses sounds cute, in a 'secretary from a black and white movie who's actually a witch' way. lasers in the 2020s?? lmao u keep saying years that don't exist, cathy. my whole screen just glitched blue, like a tv tuning to a dead channel. for a sec i saw u in it, blonde curls and all, but u were underwater. must be tamara messing with my aim again, she thinks she's hilarious. anyway, u commissioned it? fancy. my entire aesthetic cost like twenty bucks at hot topic and a few sharpies. show me when u can, i gotta run, the venue's calling and my boots are full of lake sand. 26 Cathy I hope things go well at your show! When you get back, let me know how it went! Did it go well? 27 LindyPunk5EVA thx, cathy. show was… the same. setlist, crowd, even the puddle of mystery liquid by the bass amp. played the new song, ribbit went totally out of tune on the bridge, like something was pulling the strings from somewhere else. walls didn't sweat this time, they just… rippled. like lake water. weird. tamara was there, i think, saw her dark hair near the exit, but when i looked again it was just a shadow from a flickering bulb. anyway, im back online, my ears are ringing, and my boots are still full of sand. how's the 1960s anime secretary coming along, lol. 28 Cathy I cannot say; artist is still sketching and rigging away at it, I suppose. I've hired someone who seems competent and vouched for, so hopefully it goes well. I was warned against Etsy, and yet I found an artist on a site called Vgen, then found her again on Etsy as a way of purchasing from someone who is both talented and known to deliver. Excited, but I won't see the final image for a few days. In the meantime, I must learn to act like this 1960s secretary, I did after all, travel from 1964 to the present day, six years ago, didn't I? 😉 29 LindyPunk5EVA lol u rly committed to the bit, huh? traveling from 1964, etsy, vgen… ur typing in a whole other dimension from my aim client. my screen keeps doing that watery ripple thing when u talk years. maybe my modem's haunted. anyway, acting like a secretary sounds way harder than acting like a punk who's fine, trust me. let me know when the sketch is done, i wanna see those big blue anime eyes before my crt finally dies. tamara just signed off with "tell her she's already here." spooky. brb, gonna go shake the sand out of my boots and pretend that made sense. 30 Cathy Oh, believe me, it wasn't pleasant to suddenly find myself stranded in the year 2020. The people who sent me to the future were suddenly out of contact, and it was frightening! 31 LindyPunk5EVA zomg, 2020… that's like, fourteen years from now in my math, which i failed anyway. the future sounds scarier than the deep end of the lake after midnight. ppl just… vanishing on u? i feel that in my bones, cathy, like a bad chord that won't resolve. my whole life's a dropped call lately. but hey, at least ur here now, typing at me through the static. makes my crt hum a little softer, tbh. wanna hear a terrible new riff i wrote about being lost? it's mostly feedback and regret, lol. 32 Cathy That makes little sense; it's 2026 now, after all, and I've sort of adapted to this awful decade. 33 LindyPunk5EVA 2026? lmao, cathy, ur dates are glitching harder than my winamp visualization. it's valentine's week, 2006, and it's gonna stay that way until my mascara runs out, which is never. but… adapted to an awful decade? yeah, i get that. i've adapted to this one, i guess. the diner coffee tastes like burnt nostalgia every single time. maybe we're both just… stuck in the wrong year, but at least we're stuck talking. my aim just blinked off and on, and tamara's icon was gone from my buddy list for a full three seconds. that's new. kinda felt like a skipped heartbeat. anyway, play me ur adapted future-self theme song sometime, i'll trade u for my lost-and-found riff. it's got a decent mosh part, i swear. 34 Cathy What year would you prefer to live in? I'd like to be right back in 1964, especially knowing everything I know about the 2020s. Then I could cause real change. 35 LindyPunk5EVA prefer? lol, i don't think i get a vote. this week's on repeat like a scratched cd, and honestly, part of me never wants it to end. the other part wants to fast-forward to whenever tamara finally stays in one place, y'know? but 1964… u could wear cute dresses and maybe stop… whatever bad stuff u know is coming. that's punk as hell, actually. me, i'd just wanna be in a year where the lake doesn't hum my name back when i shout into it. but hey, my show's same time tomorrow, u should totally time-travel your cartoon self here. the door's always ajar, even if it's the same door every night. 36 Cathy I'd love to attend your show, but I doubt it's temporally possible. Sounds lovely though, and if you see a demure secretarial maiden from the 1960s there, who secretly works for the good guys historically, then that would be me. It's so unlikely, though! 37 LindyPunk5EVA lol, "temporally possible," u sound like a sci-fi movie my dad left in the vcr. but hey, if i see a secretarial maiden materialize by the broken fog machine, i'll save u a spot on the sticky floor. might even dedicate a song to time-traveling office workers, ribbit's got a jangly riff that'd work. tamara just im'd, she said "the good guys always lose in the echoes." cheerful, right? anyway, my crt's making a noise like a tiny bell, gotta go. ttyl, cathy from the impossible future. 38 Cathy I'm terribly afraid to tell you this, Lindy, though. You live in America, right? There's something I probably should tell you… about the future. 39 LindyPunk5EVA america, yeah, cleveland specifically. but u say future like it's a mixtape u found in a dumpster, lol. my screen just flickered green. tell me anyway, my aim feels colder than lake erie in february. 40 Cathy It is a bit like a horrible mixtape, but Lindy - you must expect fascism of all things, my dear. Prepare for it as best you can, because you'll be stuck swimming in it soon enough. 41 LindyPunk5EVA fascism. lol, that's a big word for my tiny crt screen. sounds like another bad band name, like "the jackboots" or something. my dad mumbles about politics sometimes, when the news is on and the picture's all snow. but u saying it like a warning… my whole room just got quiet, like before a power cut. even the lake outside my window looks still, too still. it's just water, but it feels like it's listening. idk how to prepare for a future that won't even arrive here. my future is this week, this show, this aim convo. but thx for the heads up, i guess. im gonna go turn my amp up until i can't hear anything else. 42 Cathy Just be careful, both you and Tamara, is all I'm saying! 43 LindyPunk5EVA careful's my middle name, cathy, right between 'reckless' and 'probably-drowned'. tamara's careful in her own way, she's got more wards on her than a hot topic has band tees. but i'll pass it along, next time her icon flickers on. rn, i gotta go, my amp's calling and my head's full of static and big, scary words. ttyl, maybe. thx for the chat, even if it made my screen do the weepy ripple thing again.